Love Dare Day 18

My goodness!!! I feel like today, the day of reflection of sorts, is a much needed day off. My salvation and relationship with Jesus are in order and I was overjoyed this morning to see my only task was to go over all the impossible tasks of the last 17 days.

There were some tasks I only performed by the grace of the Holy Spirit. (probably most of them) The ones I felt were the most difficult are the ones I have no desire to perform on a daily basis. These are the ones I know I should be doing but it will be by the grace of God alone they continue to be accomplished. Here is my list of "Lord of Help me's".

Day 1. Choosing to be patient and not say anything negative. I managed this on the challenge day and not a day since.

Day 4. With no agenda ask how your husband is doing. Now although this seems easy I have found it to be difficult. Often when I talk to my husband I need to discuss scheduling issues, house issues or the kids. There were really few time I genuinely asked and cared. How selfish am I?

Day 6. React in a loving way instead of getting irritated. OK, seriously I think this might be impossible with me. Even with the Holy Spirit I am really having trouble surrendering my own will.

Day 8. Jealousy. Ever since I read this day I have been struggling with jealousy. I think I hadn't pinpointed exactly what it was, but I have been continually battling this.

Day 10. Doing something out of the ordinary to serve my spouse is difficult. It seems like there are so many "ordinary" ways I serve him daily I am really struggling with serving him in new and fresh ways.

Day 12. God really has to make me even want to do this one. I should constantly be submitting to my husband and giving in to areas of disagreement, but I DEFINITELY need God's help in this area.

Day 13. I sometimes even need God's help in fighting fair, even though I've been given and know all the tools.

Day 16. Without God's leading and guidance I don't even pray for my hubby as much as I should. I love my husband and desire to remember him constantly in my prayers. God has to remind me though.

Though this could be seen as discouraging, I am encouraged remembering I can do all things through Christ who gives me the strength I need. Praise God for His faithfulness!!!